The Ultimate "What Now?" Question.


 
"Bence henüz erken. İçimde bir önsezi
Yıldızlara asılı bir olay
Başlayacak bu gecenin cümbüşüyle
O ürpertici dönemine sanki;
Zamansız ölmek gibi, alçakça bir cezayla
Durdurup bağrıma gömülü yüreğimi
Son verecek aşağlık hayatıma.
Ama ey hayatımın dümenini tutan
Gemime sen yön ver. Gidelim soylu beyler!"

      -Romeo Montegue



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