The "Totally" Thunder

 Doesn't hunt me everyday though... but when I remember about the thunder I hardly swallow and my throat hurts. A sound somewhere in the sky.... I have never seen it... but I love it. I can't help. My heart refuses to pound when she hears the thunder... Is this a love? "Mi Amor" When I read that... that little red meat inside my chest hurts. Thunder heard of me two times... We actually talked... Then...gone. Probably I'm nothing for the thunder. What am I doing?  What is this feeling? I can not name it. I am in love with the thunder... "in love"? how? "love" is such a human word. I refuse to be human. Human kind kill, lie, stab others on their back, they get jealous, greedy... and so on. I don't wanna be a matter. I don't want to be seen, just be invisible and pure. Why do you ignore me, thunder? why can't you "love" me back? I am asking this as a human. These are the words of a human so you can hear... mi amor.